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-- letting out the noise inside of me [06 Mar 2004|10:48am] [ mood | different ] [ music | yellowcard - way away ] i don't think i'll be updating this blurty too often anymore. i now have a friends-only live journal. my sn there is nicolebox. 1 fiend hater X talking in hushed tones

-- dolls wreck the minced meat of pupils [29 Feb 2004|12:28am] [ mood | irregular ] [ music | the mars volta - interiatic ESP ] peer pressure is fucking killing me. i need to take drugs and have sex and be hardcore. i hate myself sometimes. i go through these little stage things. i'm on cloud nine for about a month and a half, and then i get all depressed and stuff. then i stay like that for abot two weeks, and then i'm back to happy again. i don't like that. can i have a constant? but if i had one, i wouldn't be able to decide whether i'd want to have the constant la-la-la-happy or the sadness. can aunt flo just come for her visit already and be on her merry way? i think i've stopped my regular period cycle. in this post i read on vortex, this girl said that your cycle becomes irregular when there's not enough fat on your body. she probably read that in cosmogirl or something. that is the worst teen magazine. anyway, that's probably what's happening to me. so if my period's not coming, could you send the telegram to the hormones to back the hell off? thanks. so today [yesterday] was team building day. about seven hours ago i was really juiced because it was tonza fun (kind of). ehh... it's not so good now. but to sum it up, i did have fun, now i'm just mopey and don't feel like recalling the fun stuff that happened. beat off. that was fun. still cranky. i think i'm moving to LJ. no one is on blurty escept for me and erin. literally. click my friends link. they're all erin's posts. i don't even have any friends-only ones on there. definitely moving to LJ. i haven't listened to alk3 in about four days. that's absurd behavior. 2 fiend haters X talking in hushed tones

-- last night my teeth fell out like ivory typewriter keys [28 Feb 2004|01:04am] [ mood | fine ] [ music | thursday - for the workforce, drowning ] thank you, fobseducer. Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results Sociability ||||||||||||||| 50% Gregariousness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Assertiveness ||||||||||||||| 46% Activity Level ||||||||||||||| 50% Excitement-Seeking |||||||||||||||||| 58% Enthusiasm ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Extroversion |||||||||||||||||| 54% Trust |||||||||||||||||| 58% Morality |||||||||||||||||| 54% Altruism |||||||||||||||||| 54% Cooperation ||||||||||||||| 50% Modesty ||||||||||||||| 42% Sympathy ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Friendliness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Confidence ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Neatness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Dutifulness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Achievement |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Self-Discipline |||||||||||||||||| 58% Cautiousness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Orderliness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Anxiety ||||||||||||||| 46% Volatility ||||||||||||||| 42% Depression |||||| 18% Self-Consciousness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Impulsiveness ||||||||||||||| 50% Vulnerability |||||||||||| 38% Emotional Stability |||||||||||||||||| 59% Imagination ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Artistic Interests |||||||||||||||||| 58% Emotionality ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||| 58% Intellect |||||||||||||||||| 58% Liberalism |||||||||||||||||| 54% Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||| 58% Take Free Advanced Big 30 Personality Test talking in hushed tones

-- i've got no right to take my place with the human race [27 Feb 2004|01:15am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | the smiths - bigmouth strikes again ] practice was crappy today [yesterday]. i am terrible at lacrosse. our game was cancelled, so we had to go to practice. when we got onto the field, it was sunny. we totally could've played. whatever. i'd probably be more frustrated with my performance if we actually had our game. why do i suck so bad at cutting? once someone's on me, i can't cut. i need some steroids that make me faster and good enough to fake out the defense. urgh. i don't like my new crosse. i'm preferring to use my old one for now. lauren said i should probably wait until our third or fourth game to use it, so i get a great cradle down. the surge makes cradling way too easy. ground balls are harder with the surge as well. i'm a weirdo. team building day is saturday. hopefully i won't be in such a pissy mood then. god damn you hormones. note to self: bring brownies, sequins, and lunch. i saw erin today. gahh, i miss her. she was not color-coordinated. i was very disappointed. but i did like how her basketball uniform was like, all golden. she's like the metal men in san francisco. she's got the yellow skin and everything! i'm terrible at trying to be racist. today during history ms. gorzycki whipped out a guitar and sang a satire about the poor nutrition and hygiene of the middle ages. she was singing about being on a ship, with "soldiers wretching" over the edge and how "one look at her plate made her want to regurgitate". and the chorus said something about "green beef". wow. she even played without a pick. hardcore, man. i can't eat meat tomorrow. i haven't decided what i'm giving up for lent yet either. maybe i'll say sex, since i'm getting way too much of it now. *cough* so i like this one guy, but he barely even notices me. i doubt he knows much more about me than my name. excuse me while i wallow in my self-pity. 1 fiend hater X talking in hushed tones

-- so where's the writing on the wall? [25 Feb 2004|10:01pm] [ mood | nervous ] [ music | the living end - who's gonna save us ] it's my first game of anything ever tomorrow. JV's first game is against campo tomorrow. i'm nervous, but i'm really excited. i'm second string d-wing. it's not really bothering me that i'm not starting. i was definitely not expecting to, anyway. :) i think the best part of the game is early sports dismissal. score! dad bought me a new stick. it's an STX surge. oh man, it's all pretty and white and shiny still. i don't want to use it yet. i'm not going to use it tomorrow because i'm not going to be used to it... but i want to because it's so much easier to cradle and all that jazz with it. maybe i will use it. tee-hee. lookit. it's so pretty and clean. i have two tests tomorrow. gahh, history sucks big time. i'm also procrastinating working on my brochure for complab. i had seriously better get working. it's due at the end of the period tomorrow. spartacus is hot. talking in hushed tones

-- as i stared i counted the webs from all the spiders [21 Feb 2004|12:10pm] [ mood | childish ] [ music | blink 182 - i miss you ] my teeth are sore. the orthodontist put a different wire on my bottom teeth, and now it hurts. they're preparing for this headgear [*shriek*] thing that goes inside my mouth. gahh, that is going to hurt like the devil. i have to miss school and possibly practice to get that. i missed it on thursday, at my appointment, and i felt bad. everyone picked buddy gifts, and i didn't. oh well, i guess i will on monday. i totally still like andrew. completely. he seriously brightens my day, because all my classes are crap. urghh... he is so pretty. i wish i had even a sliver of a chance with him. :( he's been talking to me more lately. on thursday, i was walking to homeroom and he was passing by, and before i had the chance to initiate a wave, he waved at me first. he never waves. he usually just does the guys' eyebrow thing. i'm probably just spazzing over nothing, but really, i feel that desparate. he's been hugging me a lot. it's driving me up the wall! why is everything so complicated?! i want a boyfriend. sophie and i decided we need boyfriends yesterday at the dance. i never have anyone to dance with or anything. what is it about me that is immensly unappealing?! i don't even know. i just want someone to hang out with. i don't like always dancing by myself. i mean, it's fun and i have a good time, but i need a change. will you be willing to be my rental john? i need to stop thinking about guys i will never have a chance with. my GPA went down to a 3.95. *kills self* ms. kastama gave me a B+ in computer lab. it was because i turned in one of my homeworks late, and i just got half credit. she grades on a curve, and she is so picky. i hate that class with a passion. i bet i'm going to have to haul ass to bring that up by the end of the semester. i need to go shopping to bring me out of this slump. 1 fiend hater X talking in hushed tones

-- you'll be dancing sexless in your bedroom [15 Feb 2004|12:03am] [ mood | full ] [ music | the stills - still in love song ] i made the team! go fiend, go fiend, it's your birthday! :D i went to the crab feed because there was nobody at mama's. i was full when i got there, and i ate more there and i felt sick. erch. now i feel better, but i'm so full. i bought clothes today. hollister is having a massive sale. it's awesome. i have to go back because mom paid for this shirt i didn't want. maybe i'll get even more stuff. bwahaha. i just searched for "alkaline trio" in the google image search and found a picture of a belgian waffle. rofl. the fact that i made the team was the main point of this entry. i'll stop now. 2 fiend haters X talking in hushed tones

-- suck back these take home packs of euthanasia [12 Feb 2004|04:53pm] [ mood | great ] [ music | the matches - sick little suicide ] i went to the doctor yesterday because my shin was really hurting. i have shin splints. ow. the doctor told me to take advil liqui-caps before i run now, so i am. god, i'm going to be so drugged up. i like those pills -- they're like, clear teal and kinda squishy. haha. today was the last day of tryouts, and i think i did fairly well. they didn't make us run, and that was a plus because now my time is good. i didn't get worse or anything, like i did during the dash. c'est la vie. during our little offense/defense drill, i was defense today. i'm not nearly as good as petra, but i did way better than yesterday. i actually knew what was going on, haha. i even got the ball away from offense. they're announcing who made the team on saturday at 3:00p at the website, i think. and if it's not there, they're emailing the results to us. keep your fingers crossed for me! :D the theme for the dance next friday (not tomorrow) is 80s sadie's. oh man, that's going to own! i'm stoked. we're going to dress up in our full fledged 80s get-ups. radical! i officially love target (or, as allie would say, targiano). they have the most coolest earrings and other bling blings there. i'm never buying jewelry anywhere else ever again. hey erin, you know those tickler earrings you bought from hot topic for like, $5? they have three pairs at target for $6. crap, we got ripped off. :( i am such a teeny-bopper.*~ talking in hushed tones

-- you know it might make her turn either way [10 Feb 2004|06:57pm] [ mood | dead ] [ music | violent femmes - please do not go ] chocolate is not a good thing to eat in excess amounts. today i had a coffee-flavored oreo, a mini-snickers, two kit-kats, a milky way, and a brownie. i also had a double chocolate crunch protein bar before school. now, my heart is beating sporadically and i feel like puking. great. i hope alkaline trio is playing warped tour on the date is comes to san francisco. i wonder when they're going to announce that. i'm definitely going to see them. hopefully we won't be in hawaii at that time. that's the only thing that really sucks about living in hawaii -- you never get to see your favorite bands play because no one ever plays in hawaii. i still like andrew. he's hot, man. lacrosse tryouts having been going pretty well, i think. i'm worn out really bad today, but i'm really trying to give it my all and make the team. it's probably going to be really tough, though. a lot of girls are trying out for varsity, so the coaches are going to be making cuts already. that means around a third of the girls trying out for var will be demoted to JV tryouts, and a bunch of us trying out for JV are going to be cut. i'm really nervous about that, especially after today. coach made petra and i take a lap because we didn't take our sticks with us absolutely everywhere. we thought we could leave our sticks, since we were about to run the dash. of course, after she told us take a lap, stupid me said, "with sticks?" and then we asked to get water and i dropped my stick and started going for water. thank god i grabbed my stick and she didn't make a run another. i'm an idiot. i think i'm going to have to duct tape that goddamn stick to my arm or something. i'm kind of disappointed with my times for the 100-yard dash. our goal is 9 seconds. the record is 8. i swear, that's impossible. my mile time has been really good so far, though, so i guess that's making up for it. my fastest dash time was 13 seconds... today i got 17. my mile yesterday was 7:57, and today it was 7:10. i want more sugar. 3 fiend haters X talking in hushed tones

-- you won't have to stop saying i love cops for anyone [08 Feb 2004|05:23pm] [ mood | griping ] [ music | alkaline trio - private eye ] i understand that it's important to know your geography for geo-hitory, but is it really neccessary to free-hand a map of eastern europe, draw all of te modern-day countires, and label a handful of cities and rivers? god, i need to just suck it up and do the goddamn thing. last night i had a lot of fun at auntie flor and frank's engagement party. the food was pretty good and there were cool people to talk to. i was really flattered because they all told me i was pretty and junk, haha. i had a flute of champagne. that stuff doesn't really taste good. acording to mom, it was very good, though. eew, i'm such a kid. mom also spilled a full flute onto the front of my pants. it looked like i peed myself. real classy. the best part was the cake. it was like banana bread with chocolate filling and cream cheese icing. yummy. oh, and might i add they had a very nice loo upstairs. i like how i always critique bathrooms. i really like that white chocolate raspberry cheesecake at the olive garden. i want some more of it. i have to go to the library tomorrow after school to get the cliff notes for great expectations. i can read the old english okay now, but i'm still missing a lot of the plot. i'm pretty nervous about lacrosse tryouts. they start tomorrow. i hope i do well. sometimes when we're doing the little situation thingers, i feel like i'm not doing what i'm supposed to. i think i'm imitating what everyone else is doing properly, but i keep thinking i'm not doing it right. hmph. i'm telling myself not to be devastated if i don't make the team. i mean, at least i've tried. and i've had fun doing it. i want to watch the grammys tonight, so i should probably do that map now. gahh. eew, this is gross. it wasn't a pasty on janet jackson's boob... click at your own risk. 1 fiend hater X talking in hushed tones

-- i have no desire to see through my own eyes anymore [06 Feb 2004|11:40pm] [ mood | not creative ] [ music | alkaline trio - take lots with alcohol ] new layout. and that is exactly how i feel. i can't be creative at all lately. all my creativity was used up in computer art class. even then i was dissatisfied though, because my penciled rough draft was nicer than the real thing. hmph. i didn't go to lacrosse today on account of i was sore. and just a little lazy. it's friday. i can't help it. i'm nervous for tryouts on monday. oh, did i tell you? they moved tryouts from the afternoon to 6:30. in the morning. die. i really wanted to go to L3 tomorrow night, but i can't because i have to go to auntie flor's engagement hoo-ha. i don't even know what's going to be going on or what i'm supposed to wear. mom said "dressy casual", but seriously. that could mean all sorts of things. i don't like the fact that high school is harder this semester. i want every semester to be first semester. it was really, a lot easier. lately my diet has consisted of mainly cereal and protein bars. i had five servings of various cereals today. help me. i want to go to bed. i also want more blurty friends. on monday i'm going to commision everyone i know to get a blurty. either that, or i'm going to move to live journal. it's free now. you don't even need a code. i don't want to abandon this blurty, though. i have one of the fancy accounts where you can do all sorts of stuff with it. with my LJ, i can add a background, maybe. ack. i don't like the whole LJ hype. besides, it's more fun to say, "oh yes, i have a BJ." instead of LJ. haha. talking in hushed tones

-- don't make me get all blackhawk on your ass [31 Jan 2004|02:22pm] [ mood | sickly ] [ music | the network - spike ] argh. feeling pretty shitty. procrastinating history homework. the works. i was so pissed off yesterday that i couldn't go to retreat. i was looking forward to that for a week. i had a high fever and i thought i was coming down with the flu. how grand. so much to my dismay, mom decided i should just stay home. i feel like i've missed out on thi ginormous day of fun. i hope i didn't miss much. :( what gets me is this. you know how sleeping is supposed to get you better when you're sick? so on thursday night i went to bed at eight. that's early, in case you can't tell. i turned on the heater so i was all warm and went to sleep. i woke up several times in the night like, burning up. i thought it was just because of the heater and what not, but heat is supposed to be good when you're sick so i left it on and slept some more. when i woke up for school, i was feeling totally out of it. my body felt like it was floating everywhere and i was sweating. usually in the morning it's so cold i have goosebumps all over. i felt terrible. so i didn't go to school. i guess i feel better now. my fever isn't as high (i don't think i have a fever anymore but dad said i still do a little) and i have a sense of gravity again. i ate a little this morning. i didn't eat much dinner last night. i'm still not really in the eating mood, but i can handle bread, soup, and my dear friends, the altoids. the things that are bothering me now are: my slight case of sniffles, a cough, and my effing period. why is it that i have to get my period on top of all the other ways that i feel sick? it sucks. last time i had my period i barely bled anything. now it's like the hoover dam has broken or something. and i have all those crappy period feelings that i don't usually have. i'm all bloated and cramped and it just feels like hell. at least i'm not really flu-ish anymore, so that's good. yesterday i watched this movie called normal on HBO. it's about this transgender guy and his family and what they have to go through as he decides to get a sex change operation. it was really good. i enjoyed it. i had better do some of this homework so i can go sleep again. haha, that's what my vortex avatar looks like. it's pretty funny, if i do say so myself. 1 fiend hater X talking in hushed tones

-- wait they don't love you like i love you [26 Jan 2004|06:00pm] [ mood | quiet ] [ music | yeah yeah yeahs - maps ] i'm not doing my english essay like i'm supposed to. i don't know if you guys know this, but it is very very hard to write an illustration essay on three's company and how the characters were memorable. if you can help, IM me please. gahh, this was a stupid topic. it was the best out of my ideas, though, so that gives you a sense of what i was working with. winter ball was fun. the best part was the free stuff. they had free cameras, soda, black jack, and caricatures. good times. the caricature guy was the same on that did my caricature at denise's wedding. he's good. there was this hot senior at winter ball that julia, sophie, and i were practically drooling over. we had never seen him before, so we assumed he didn't go to our school. this morning, julia came up to me and said, "oh man, guess what? the hot guy from winter ball goes to our school!" that was weird. well, that night, i went up like, a foot away from him and snapped a picture of his face. i thought he didn't go to school with me, i'd never see him again, but i'd have the hot picture. well what do you know, i saw him today. needless to say, i ducked and hid. wow, that's just a little bit embarassing. i hope he doesn't remember what i look like. :P before going to winter ball, about sixteen or eighteen of us went to chevy's. i swear, chevy's has ass service. i ordered a taco, and it never came. i ended up eating two baskets of chips and birthday ice cream and cancelling my order. pfft. that "slo jamz" song by that one rapper and jamie foxx is stuck in my head. eew. today i touched a ribbed, lubed, trojan in christian sex. nice. i was feeling all pleasured. :D we also talked about flavored condoms. wow, that's a great class. talking in hushed tones

-- white lipstick smeared upon my bathroom mirror [20 Jan 2004|10:16pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | hot hot heat - get in or get out ] yvette died yesterday. i didn't really know her or anything, but it's still sad that she's gone. she was only 19. i dropped off my dress for winter ball at winnie's today. actually, it's the dress i wore for auntie jo's wedding. it's going to be ready on friday. :( i can't go to charles' party, though, because i have to go pick up the dress. poopnuts. i wanted to go. liam and i decided we aren't going to go in the limo with the other 3849783654375 people. it would be nice, i'm sure, but we just think it'd be kind of weird. he doesn't really hang out with the people going [and come to think of it, i don't think i do either], so i don't want him to feel weird. i'd also rather not go in a limo. someone's bound to get carsick, and that is not a place i want to be. so we're going with derek h. and michelle g. and des and kelly l. it should be pretty cool. i told dad and he was all, "derek?! your presidential rival?!" haha, he's a dork. oh yeah, and we're getting a corsage and a boutoniere. how fancy pants. i bet that's going to be a little hard to find. i had better do that tomorrow night. god, this sucks! i have to go to lacrosse, but there's so much i have to do for winter ball. pfft. so today while dad and i were in the city we went to the san francisco center. holy crap, that building's cool. they have curving escalators. i don't think anyone in the world was excited as i was to see those curving escalators. they were dope. dad bought me a sweater from A&F because it was on sale. at A&F, there was this gross old man flirting with the cashier girl. he was holding the bag with the girl taking her top off on it, and he was all, "i don't want that bag." the girl said, "oh, you don't like that bag?" and he replied, "no; i want one with you on it." eew, he was a perv. he was hella holding up the line. there was a guy in the back of the line that was like, "this is bullshit!" and left. haha. it kind of pissed me off, though. i was next in line. luckily, another cashier came to ring us up. the old perv even put on some of the girls' perfume, lol. i bet the little pinoy security guard kicked him out. that was seriously the highlight of my day. me and alexa destroyed the entire pencil after you left, corinne. there's this fat black part on the cement where we were playing with it. 6 fiend haters X talking in hushed tones

-- if assholes could fly this place would be busier than o'hare [19 Jan 2004|02:10pm] [ mood | obligated ] [ music | alkaline trio - you're dead ] i need new blurty friends. erin is the only person that posts anymore. you're all lewzahs. my new icon is kick ass. *points up* yesterday was keoni's birthday. we went to mama cora's and had fun. yay. i ate ice cream cake and played uno and foosball. i think the best part of mama cora's house is the foosball table. so we bought keoni this mega blox ninja turtles thing. it came with this super-cool slime. it's the most indescribable substance in the world, but it's so awesome! you have to see it. i wanted to buy him these ninja turtle nunchucks, but mom thought it was too dangerous. party pooper. :D nh bought me from here to infirmary. great stuff. alkaline trio owns. dude, we all have to go to L3 on february 8th. i want to see the matches. oh, and audrye sessions is going to be there! remember them? it'll be funny. all the matches kids will be like, "hey, wtf?!" when the quiet little audrye sessions songs come on. good band, though. i think i'm gonna go. ~*with a taste of your lips i'm on a ride... i'm addicted to you; don't you know that you're toxic?*~ 4 fiend haters X talking in hushed tones

-- the problem's chronic tell me does life exist beyond it [16 Jan 2004|08:54pm] [ mood | slick ] [ music | bad religion - supersonic ] bryan, how come whenever i write something on my blurty using the word "you" you think i'm referring to you? don't assume -- you're accepting that bash instead of someone else who deserves it. kthnx. k so i'm going to winter ball now. i know for the past week or two i've been saying i'm not, but now i am. yesterday liam asked me to go with him. great. he's cool beans. now i need to find something to wear. i think i'll just wear my dinner dance dress and get my hair trimmed a little. outfit repeater! i like friends. they're great. christian sex is the most hilarious class ever. it's so funny how ms. bonjean calls having sex "making love". today we talked about a wide range of topics, including underwater fish-babies, eating human placenta, and breasts hard as rocks. haha, that owned. she said one of her old students used to call her ms. BJ. i was cracking up. her son's name is blaze. i don't know if i spelled that right, but it sounds like that. i think that's really neat. viva la bam hasn't been on all night. *cries* it's newlyweds. i hope they sho the bam-ness later one. i'm thinking about taking AP biology next year. to tell you the truth, the only reason i want to take it is so that it has that big, shiny "AP" on my report card. i really hate science and so i think there's really no need for me to take a college-level science course. i think i'll talk to my counselor about it next week. i survived the six tests. they weren't so bad, really. thank god. 5 fiend haters X talking in hushed tones

-- a place we call our final resting place in pieces [15 Jan 2004|07:53am] [ mood | overwhelmed ] [ music | alkaline trio - donner party (all night) ] school is a pain. i have a grand total of six tests ad quizzes. the worst of which comes on friday, my favorite (well, used to be) day of the week. i have honors geo-history and math tests on friday. why, god, why?! i'm in computer art right now, doing nothing. i already did my history homework and started studying for that test, and reviewed for my french test next period. we still have about half an hour left in class. god, class is entirely too long. you are really dumb. i can't believe you don't notice it yourself. it cracks me up. i'm tired. *yawn* 1 fiend hater X talking in hushed tones

-- i'm gonna teach them all to work for liberty [11 Jan 2004|10:47pm] [ mood | beguiled ] [ music | desaparecidos - $$$$ ] dear 24.6.232.148: why don't you just reveal your identity? why are you concerned about the way i dress? apparently, you don't know me very well. even when i was "rockish" i shopped at "preppy" stores. just because i dress a certain way doesn't mean that i can't listen to a certain type of music. thanks for calling me a whore and a poseur. i find it funny that the way i, an insignificant person, acts gets a reaction out of you. "whose the poser now?" maybe if you told me who you are, i could tell you who the poseur is. all i know is that you have comcast broadband. i really have no desire to impress you, so i won't take this any further. i'd just like to leave you with one thought: don't judge people by the way they dress, because it won't get you anywhere. today was erin's birthday, yay. happy birthday, hot sex grandma. speaking of grandma, tomorrow is mama's birthday. i love mama. that song "feeling this" by blink-182 will forever be stuck in my head. i've been singing it since friday morning, haha. it's so goddamn catchy. i wish i read recreationally more often. i love reading, but it just seems like i have no time. i miss the library. i have a french quiz tomorrow. gahh, school sucks. it's only been a week that i've been back to school, and i already wish it was vacation again. :( edit: oh, thanks for the comments, bryan. i am a poseur. :) i like how you threw in the fact that i'm asian for extra oomph. what's so wrong with wearing a miniskirt? last time i checked, you would've been thrilled if i was wearing one. 8 fiend haters X talking in hushed tones

-- down the drain with one silver bullet and two vicodin [09 Jan 2004|09:30pm] [ mood | listless ] [ music | alkaline trio - emma ]   i'm just not that scandalous, i guess. i have nothing to do... i played emogame 1.5 again. i still haven't been able to beat 1.0. i royally blow at all video games except for donkey kong country and super bomberman for SNES. bear in mind i've had these games for ten years. i have practice. i guess i'm also pretty good at mortal kombat trilogy for N64 and crash bandicoot 3: warped for playstation. and all the pokemon games. the thing is, all those games are really straightforward. they're not all confusing and wandery and stuff like tomb raider. i have the third one, and i've never gotten past the first area. lol. computer lab is boring. for 85 minutes today, all i did was type random letters in word, save them, and reopen them. lame. i did all the exercises in about half an hour. i can't wait til that class gets interesting. it's kind of dumb; we turn our assignments in on paper. she'd never know whether or not we formatted the things correctly. hell, i could slap everything on in photoshop and never learn the proper way to do things and still pass. about that one topic that cannot be mentioned: i really just can't feel any sympathy for him. really. none at all. i decided i'm going to buy a pair of creepers with my hot topic merchandise credit. i think i have about $22.50 on the card, and that should cover about half the cost of the shoes. good times. these are the ones i'm interested in. they also come in red plaid. i kind of wanted dominatrix boots, but i couldn't find any good ones online. maybe tomorrow we can check them out at the store. even better -- mom and dad could take me to haight and buy me things. :D we're going to the city so mom can pick up her glasses, and so i can get new ones. i still want black frames, but i'm thinking of getting a more rectanglish shape. mine are cateyes right now. the tag on my shirt is really itchy on the back of my neck, and viva la bam is my favorite television program. 2 fiend haters X talking in hushed tones

-- i get the sun and your lips both pressing on my skin [04 Jan 2004|06:50pm] [ mood | stoked ] [ music | alkaline trio - blue carolina ] yesterday my dad won $1500 from the lotto. he got 4 out of the 5 regular numbers and the mega. the number we didn't get was 11, and we had a 10. one digit away from winning $71 million. that's so awesome. i was jumping up and down in the bathroom at costco, and all the ladies washing their hands were staring at me. i wonder if my life would be any different had i won the $71 million. *ponder* school again tomorrow. i'm glad. my body's been all out of wack for the latter part of the holidays. yesterday i was walking around valley fair half asleep. i bought coffee, and then i was awake but all i ate was salad for dinner. at midnight i was hungry and i started to eat leftover cheese enchilada, but i felt gross. i am not cool. seriously, no. 4 fiend haters X talking in hushed tones

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